Lent Week 2 -- Improvement

[starduchess]

This should be a season of atonement, a chance to look back over the year, list places that could use improvement, and amend life anew. My biggest goal at the present moment is in meeting my husband's needs, which are openness, honesty, being on time, and rational thinking. I find that my own habits and wants conflict exactly with those, so swapping these is a major challenge. I've always been an introvert and it hurts to open up and talk about my inner feelings because I always feel like I'm being judged.  He assures me that he just wants to know so he can understand me, but that means I must critically examine my motivations which I have found difficult to do in the past.  I have resolved, however, to tell him my thoughts and that should get easier with practice.

Once I do manage to say something, then he moves forward with forming action plans and setting goals.  I agree with decisions that sound reasonable and doable so now I actually have to make changes to my routine, set alarm clocks, write better notes to myself, and the like.  The ultimate position is to change my attitude so as to put his needs in front of my wants.  I just hope my wants can be taken care of too.